Rabu, 20 Mei 2015

POSTMO: When Theater World is Mean to You

The audition started when the sun came down. Many contestants were waiting in line for an audition of musical theater, yet some people got nervous. I looked at some people who were apparently are dancers. They were so graceful and sharp when practicing their body before audition, and while everyone had a turn for auditions I felt that they had greatly impressed the judges. While me? I am basically started in fine arts theater, that means I am not yet qualified in singing and dancing. I went to several musical auditions before, and the luck is not on me now. Then I talked to my friend who was sitting next to me, watching one of the contestants singing beautifully, but actually have no feeling with the character. I asked, “How come those contestants have better possibility to be accepted but she didn’t put the character into it?” She replied, “Because they search for people like that. That’s why I would not care if they won’t be accepted.”

The era of postmodernism relies on the drastic state of rebellion against modernism during 1970’s, since the era of modernism gave many disadvantages on people’s lives. Postmodernists believe that people needs more than logic. Moreover they believe in the existence of pluralism, existence of information based on individuals’ critic and point-of-view; from architecture, literature, arts and theater. As a result theater practitioners changed the method from the old style (Brechtian) into the era of modernism and postmodernism (Stanislavski & Antonin Artaud). For instance, during Brechtian era, the acting style of old theaters are mostly implemented mechanically, which means all bodies and facial expressions dominate the stage play. However the acting seems very rigid, therefore Stanislavski implemented the new system of naturalism, where actors focus on interpreting feelings into the character, as well as the world of spontaneous acting.

But what about broadway? According to Dr. Raymond Sener from Centre for Socio-Eco-Nomic Development, Broadway theaters involve less emotional approach, because Broadway focuses on consciousness and much less emotional experience, political criticism and simple entertainment. It is okay because postmodernism takes varieties on many types of theater. That’s why, in Indonesia most musical auditions count more on the style of singing and dancing rather than the acting, while fine art theaters encourage actors to improve acting skills. In additions, most theater auditions aim to find people who are fit in with the character. So, if you are not accepted in an audition, it doesn’t mean that you are not eligible, it’s just that the character doesn’t fit in; and if you want to sign up for an audition, just decide which audition might fit in for you.



Minggu, 10 Mei 2015

The Reason why I am Afraid of Marriage

It's been several months since I didn't blog that much. For several months, I thought many relationships problem happen continuously in the media, especially when it comes to divorce. From what I thought right now, I do believe that marriage is not the source of happiness, moreover a good guarantee for people to achieve happiness. Since my age is not yet qualified to step on the world of settlement, here's the reason why I think marriage should be reconsidered:


1. Only you can make yourself happy 
When I was a kid I used to love watching many princess fairy tales and most of them always emphasize happy endings, where the prince is finally come to save, and love the princess truly just the way they are. But in reality? Love can fade. Many couples strive to maintain relationship by keeping communication pace and remember wedding vows, but I do believe that not all people can do that. Some people might rather find someone else as a rebound, and would not care if the wife/husband is just sitting at home, waiting for the spouse to come and have a good time. If the secret revealed, in the end it's just a heartbreak. What if the spouses' keep cheating? What if the spark is losing that the couples can't get it back anymore? It hurts that slowly, without realizing it, the self-esteem will fade. "Am I still pretty? Am I good enough? Am I responsible enough? Maybe not." Sometimes people learn to seek admiration and closeness from people, without remembering that the self is much worth it.

2. When Mr/Mrs. Right changes to Mr/Mrs. I-Don't-Know-Who-The-Person-Is-Anymore
Someone once told me, that relationship takes several phase of knowing someone deeper. From honeymoon phase, until he/she knows who the person really is. When it comes to dealing with this surprising character, for example highly temperamental, addiction of substances, materialistic, and many more. Although he/she might know their flaws before marriage, if one of the spouses can't handle the problem well it will turn into a major catastrophe.

3. It's all about the money...and the job division!
Indeed! According to several wedding magazines, many couples ended up divorced because of financial problems. The word money is inseparable when it comes to marriage, in order to pay for household expenses, insurance, credit card, and other never ending debt. Most payments must be paid by two people in order to be balanced, but worst of all is when the financial agreement is unfair, and only one person will get the benefit. For example, a woman named E is a successful career woman, and she is the one who provides everything for the family. She must drive home, standing in the middle of traffic for several hours, must still cook dinner, while the husband is just sitting in front of the TV, and never appreciates her time to cook while her body is tired; instead of cooking for her, or at least not criticize it. That's what I'm most afraid of.

4. Challenge = in laws
In Indonesia, when someone is married, it's like you "marry" the family. Although the couples have already started with their life, some parents still want to be involved in the spouse's business. If there's any problem, especially when the in laws stay at home, the gossip will be spread in viral!


Well that's all I can say for now. Marriage is more than just about being happy, and it is not a guarantee to live happily ever after, because in the end, if the couples are in catastrophe there's a chance for major separation; which is divorce. Hence, what for if I spend million Rupiah only for wedding, but when it comes to the game I feel like in jail? Or even ended up choose the wrong person? It is a waste of time. I believe I do have a say in this because marriage can be practiced by just living together in an apartment. Secondly, I am afraid of failure because the realm of marriage is very serious, and since my age is still young enough I'm not ready for that. I guess that makes sense.